I do realize that I have been a bit absent this last month. I took an unplanned hiatus over Christmas to spend time at home. The limited access to a computer might have had something to do with it as well :/
I have tried to write this post SEVERAL times in the last week. At first, I resolved to write again on January 23rd, because that would be a month since I last wrote. For some unknown reason...that just wasn't happening; too perfect maybe. My heart wasn't quite back into blogging yet. Let me take a moment and let the blogger world into my soul:
The last month has been quite the emotional roller coaster. Not exactly the kind of coaster I'd purchase a season pass to ride 57 times in a season, but one that worth the hype and long line. Typical story: Girl meets Boy. Girl likes Boy. Boy and Girl become best friends through middle school, high school, and college. Eight years later, they kiss in a game of Truth or Dare. Girl and Boy date for two weeks. Boy knows what's best and suggests their time has been spent. Girl understands and begins to heal.
Mmmmk....maybe not UBER typical, but certainly chick flick worthy (so much so that it took me a month to be able to handle a real chick flick again haha. I had my own fix)
I've learned SO much about myself, my relationship with My Jesus and my God-given desires. To quote my dear friend Jacki, this has been such a sweet time. I'm not goin to lie to you Bloggoys and Bloggettes, my heart got a battered a little, but what better time to lean on the Eternal Mercy and Love of the Lord Almighty than when you're feelin a little down. Unfortunately, we're more likely to lend an ear to God when we've seemingly lost what we so desperately were holdin onto.
I want a guy to call my own, and I want a guy to point at me from across the room and say, "That's her." I mean really...don't we all? I'm learnin though, I have my Jesus. I don't mean that in a cheesy, "I'll turn to my religion since clearly earthly boys want nothing to do with me." It's just not that way. I sing nearly every Sunday that God is enough for me. He is enough...he is enough..he is enough. Time to live it. Yes, I believe God has an amazing man who is daily seeking to be Christ-like and praying for the day I enter his life, but even when I meet him...he will not be able to fulfill my every need. If I am not secure in my Jesus and my Faith, I am no good to this fellow. I want a Jesus seekin lad that I can run this race with.
Now, you might be thinkin', "MMMk Miss High and Almighty, what happens if that's not God's plan and you don't get maRRIED, HUH? wHAT THEN?!" Well first off, easy Pharisee.....second, as i said, God is enough. He will fill that desire for a husband with His Love and really....i would be counted Blessed if that was the case. I don't know the story, but I'm SO excited to live it :)
Now, sticking with the theme of this blog, YES I AM STILL RUNNING! Ran my first race on January 8th! My next race is February 26th! Might do a few in March then my big goal of the HALF MARATHON is MAY 1st!
Training started today :) Three miles at 7am on black ice and snow sounds scary, but it wasspectacular! God is SO good for giving me this motivation. I'll document each run, each day here on the blog. I'll also be documenting my Race to my Prize in Heaven :)
I'm SO excited to share this with you :)
Let me know if I can pray for you in any way.
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